Since I've been growing, I've been I guess someone somewhat attractive. Since I've gotten out of school I've gotten a bit more attention from, well, people. Yes, including women. I've had a few rare times in school where people have hit on me but it was very rare. I've just been thinking how often times after I talk to someone for a while they mention my breasts. It's just really bothered me, because I'm so much more than a pair of big boobs!! It's not like I wanted them in the first place. It just makes me feel sad that that's what people look at first on me. Not my face or my mannerisms, just my chest.
Another thing that bothers me is how people seem to think I'm a certain way because of how I look. I get hit on by guys who really wouldn't like my personality but I know like how I look. And it's fine that they think I'm attractive but I know it's a disappointment for us both since he's usually not my "type" either. I really don't look forward to going out to a bar or something since I know I'll be looked at more as a one night stand than a potential girlfriend.
It's just so disappointing that I can't be looked at as a pretty girl who is probably nice and fun to hang out with instead of what it seems everyone thinks. Which is that I'm pretty much the total opposite of who I am. I've been trying harder now than ever to really show my true self all the time and I'm getting much better but sometimes i feel like it doesn't matter what I do since people won't see me that way anyways.
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